Charge!

Make haste, O God, to deliver me!
O LORD, make haste to help me!
Let them be put to shame and confusion
who seek my life!
Let them be turned back and brought to dishonor
who delight in my hurt!
Let them turn back because of their shame
who say, “Aha, Aha!”
May all who seek you
rejoice and be glad in you!
May those who love your salvation
say evermore, “God is great!”
But I am poor and needy;
hasten to me, O God!
You are my help and my deliverer;
O LORD, do not delay!

I did not expect to be back blogging about this; really about any topic. I’d given up and was ready to crawl into a hole and pull the cover over me as the thought of re-hashing all the vitriolic garbage from my trial for the hearing before the Real Estate Commission was more than I could bear. My energy, my will to go on in almost anything had disappeared after my conversation with Mel Black; there was more than a little measure of feeling sorry for myself and I recognized it, but just didn’t have the strength to keep trying.

Then WordPress notified me of the incredible response to my blog and messages of encouragement and support began filling my inbox and Facebook account. The more I thought of giving in, of throwing in the towel, the angrier I became at myself and at those who perhaps were quietly cheering my last blog. One person (who shall remain nameless here) would’ve been dancing and cheering given a chance on the grave of my dreams, but so many more were far too busy with sledgehammers and bulldozers wanting to work with me to smash through that wall separating me from a career in real estate!

My friends who have come alongside me and the best Friend of all who has spoken to my heart the strength I do not have and the will to go on; all of these and more, I am silly enough to think I can make a difference in the real estate community not only in terms of moving property, but helping others find the dream home they have longed to own.

So, the battle is not over; the time of the hearing is yet to be announced and Kathy and I have to start pulling together the funds we will need to fight this battle and it will not be pretty (battles rarely are!), but it will be fought! The outcome is still in question; there is no certainty in this life but the grave and what lies beyond, but one thing I will do with the help of my God and my incredible friends…I WILL FIGHT!